Chapter 4: An Ocean Of Doubt

Emo Diaries, Chapter 4

An Ocean Of Doubt

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01. Five Speed - "What's Our Dilemma"
02. Red Animal War - "Backbreaker"
03. The John Doe Band - "Supergirl"
04. Ed Matus' Struggle - "Distance"
05. Aina - "Rolling Snowball"
06. Further Seems Forever - "Vengeance Factor"
07. Keystone Sinatra - "Twenty1""
08. The MovieLife - "Valens"
09. Spy Versus Spy - "Set The Spokes Alight"
10. ODG - "Corners"
11. Merrick - "Milk And Lots More"
12. Flux Capacitor - "Sasshe"
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Recording Time: 51 min 21 sec

Lyrics:

What's Our Dilemma: explain the reason why. why that my ships lost in the night. you ask the question sigh. why my chains broke and out of sight. over now. drown in a sea. that you can. regretfully hate me. my eyes are blind. as their size. i've seen the lies. because of where you stuck me. eyes are blind. i see the lies. i ask to fall. because of where you stuck me Backbreaker: these vacant hands. wanted only to hold you. your tired soul. unfolding from the inside out. you opened up your heart. and let it go. consumed with all the drama. and it shows. still taking a lifetime. isn't it funny. how much we learn about ourselves. when it rains. it pours. and i hear breathing is involuntary. so someone keep reminding me. follow. i let you down. make a wish Supergirl: she always cuts me open. and wraps me up again. when i madly miss her. she sees me as a friend. it's got to end. when i'm extremely out there. she's my super girl. it's a fantasy of her hand. it's the chemistry of her hair. you could never find her. it doesn't matter how you try. you could never recognize her. in all the faces passing by. when i close my eyes at night. she says. but she's never been in sight. so say so say. is there something i can do. since she never seems to look the same. when i put her in a frame. so say so say. is there someone who would do like you. it's the fantasy of her hand. it's the fantasy of her. i never felt more parted. from these boring scenes. that take place before me. i don't know what it means. in my dreams. i'm extremely out there. with my supergirl Distance: sympathetic. control me effortlessly. a dim projection. once again my memory fails. and i regret this toll of wasted honesty. so i pull back and leave you here. when things fall down. i will not be another shoulder. decide once and for all. i will not be another shoulder. so i try too hard. you tell me. i can only bleed this way. but with all your strength to mock me. i may never lift my head again. never feel the same again. when things fall down. i will not be another shoulder. decide once and for all. i will not be another shoulder. deeply embedded. in spite of everything i've said. i wont forget this. completely blinded by the cold shock of running aground. i will not be another shoulder Rolling Snowball: saw this stain in your skin. i'm not the first to see. my finger caress. is far from disclosing its origin. you hold on unfairness so tight. that regret is just another word. stay close. it's the only thing that remains. taking for granted is a rolling snowball .that time won't deflect but blow. you kept assuring you had been beaten. i thought it was your clumsy behaviors guilt. self-made injury Vengeance Factor: this is worth it's weight in words. to give in now would be absurd. so keep your retractions to yourself. this plays upon my sympathies. i shouldn't have come i know i should leave. but they said. but they said i should see this for myself. and now these are severing. and i was saving everything. can't believe i believed. i believed that it might help. making amends. seems so far out of hand. still holding strong to where we stand. most of lost all sight of how we ever felt. your getting even. getting ready to fight. gotten smug. gotten ugly and lost all sense of pride. and i'm forgetting. forgetting why i wanted to cry. i'm still waiting on a day when no hearts would die Twenty1: so many miles away. but i'd walk them all. if i knew it would help at all. state of nothingness over telephone. twenty1 is carved in bone. this poor soul wants to go home. home is your smile. eyes two arms and soul. take the sun down. leave it on the floor. so many miles away. but i'd walk them all. if i knew it would help at all. insomnia and me. on a swim too deep. restless eyes could use some sleep. so many miles away. twenty1's her name Valens: i took what i wanted. but i can't have what i want. balled up or sprawled out. flame on the seat of the couch. seemingly intangible. i cup it. rekindle it. and ward the wind. we clicked and i clicked. i pointed. squinted and pulled. and i can never take it back. i live in this heat. i freeze in its warmth. i can't win Set The Spokes Alight: welcome to landmass. or take a good day. any day you like. in picking locks. they're all the same. rolled to one. crossing lines at a time. collecting and connected. to the outside i left behind. in a sense. we never went anywhere special at least. you build the fire. and i'll burn the food. after all what did we learn. a crossing that links lines left at a time. dates and times and sets and places. tracing lines on aging faces. shot down if you call me up tonight. with liberty song in rhyming tongue Corners: now it seems. like she cares. she had my hear tripping for her. but i already have another. for my times of being up and being low. while you break me. i feel the pressure. of the one whose pride has gone. so damn far. always expect the worst from living. refusing every compromise. and you're the one who gets despised. and out of sight. i was there breaking down. wondered why. but as i walk around. i ain't wasting any thought for her. you know at the end. all those senseless words make perfect sense. i've lived a life. in which serious things meant shit. getting old and i can't complain. when serious things mean shit Milk and Lots More: she wears the brightest smile. but there's the sadness in her eyes. she longs to believe the things. her parents say are lies. and she knows she doesn't want to be. daddy's little girl. when there's so much life outside. of her little world. and she longs to see the side of life. she's only read about. the city lights are waiting. on the other side of town. and she can't believe the things. she's seen since she made a pact. with herself to run away.